Channeled Card for April: Self Doubt
Right now, it is increasingly easy to doubt those who have been placed in positions of power to protect us. When we feel unsafe, infrastructure and feelings of security we have carefully crafted begin to tumble, and close behind that tumble of stones is self-doubt in our decision making—and not just the big choices—but the small ones.
"Shall I head out to the grocery store today?" Fast on the heels of fear arrives a lower vibrational voice that whispers, "What if I get sick? Will I continue to be able to pay my bills? Will I lose my home? What if this feeling lasts forever?"
BREATHE.
Self-doubt and fear walk hand in hand and their only desire is to spread—just like a virus. They wish to spread throughout your entire body making it impossible for you to move out of bed, let alone trust in any decisions you make that could affect your future in any way.
You must not let the shadow take over the self. Oftentimes I have related an analogy my guides have sent into my mind regarding our shadows.
I ask clients to imagine themselves sitting in a car on the road of life. I then ask them to tell me where they are sitting. Are they driving the car, sitting in the passenger seat, in the back, or perhaps out of the car entirely.
This exercise can give you a birds-eye view into how much control your shadow self currently has. Of course we wish to know that we are driving the car and our shadow is simply a passenger that pipes up with words of fear due to trauma every once in a while, but honestly, that's not usually the case. I impress upon clients and friends the benefits of talking to their shadow selves. Let them know that you understand why they are pushing for certain choices.
You get it—after all, you have lived this life together. But now—you can protect your shadow. They don't need to worry so much and play out scenarios that no longer protect you but hold you back or in place. They can take their hands off the wheel and allow you to drive, as the universe has always intended.
This isn't always an easy conversation—but it's important to begin tracking when your shadow tries to steal the wheel and to let them know that you've got this and they can trust you.
During this process, please be compassionate and kind to yourself. This work doesn't happen overnight and nor should it. My guides are simply asking you each to shine a light on the way you navigate and engage with your shadow and to notice when your shadow and fear aim to drive you off a cliff and into a canyon of self-doubt.
XOXO,
AJA X Spirit Guides
